I am not an active blogger but still never miss out the blogs posted on Sulekha. I didn’t know Sulekha as an active blogging site and my first visit was to the Classifieds. While checking out the other sections I landed on the blogs page and was little confused at first as I didn’t know what blogs was all about. I ran through few posts and thought that is was all writers forum. I didn’t know at that point of time that all users can post their views, thoughts and comments in Sulekha blogs even if they are average level writers.

I always felt that I lacked the basic standard of English knowledge  and hesitated a lot to express my words and thoughts through blogs. It took me a long time to post my first blog. My experience of writing my first blog was more like writing my exams because I wanted my first introduction to the Sulekha blogs world via my blogs to be impressive and wanted to create a nice impact. I registered myself to post my blog and copy pasted my first writing from the word doc to the blog post section. But still I was hesitant and was thinking over to click on the submit button. I was in a dilemma. My blog i.e., my first writing will be viewed by all the bloggers who are better writers than me and I was thinking hard as how they would accept it. Would they be aggressive towards me for writing so badly or would they block me for me being weak in my grammar or they would comment so rigidly that I would be de-motivated and would stop writing forever…

Ghosh!!!! Those were the bad 15 mins I have ever experienced. I was staring at my monitor and still thinking should I click on the submit button or not…I heard my mom telling my grand ma that 6.30pm is the good timing to start the pooja…I saw the time in my comp and it was 6.25pm…Made all my prayers and clicked on the submit button at sharp 6.30pm…

“Thank you for blog post. Your blog has been posted successfully” – man I was awaiting all these days to see these words….I was dreaming for my posts to appear among all the good writers post…..

Still I was not normal…I was waiting for my post to appear in the “Recent Blogs post” column. I was refreshing the page continuously until I saw my post appearing in the first line of the recent blogs post…That was the happiest moment of my life….I felt proud, I felt I have made my dream come true….I was running like a mad nut and in happiness I had 2 bars of chocolates..(my favourite)….

But the same time I was scared about the response…How people would take up my first writing.? I scared of my results….I didn’t get to sleep the whole night…I thought people would be surely cursing me for writing so badly and they would have blasted about my writing in their comments….What I have did?? I know I m not good in writing then why the hell I posted it online…Thousands of people would have read it and more than me they would be scolding my English teacher(poor mam)…Sorry mam I have done this in eagerness but still I believe your teaching is not so bad…Throughout the night these questions were eating my mind and I didn’t know when I fall asleep…

Next day morning when I opened my inbox a big surprise for me…A mail from Sulekha….Oh man I was waiting for this…A comment to my blog….I was flying high…I cannot believe my eyes…50 views to my blog on a day and one comment for that….That is amazing…I got a sweet comment from “Smilez” and it brought back the my smile…..Thanks a ton Smilez…Your comment made me happy….

Within a 3 or four days I got 250 views for my blog and I was stunned…These views and that one comment to my first blog motivated me and gave me that little confident that I too have little English knowledge and I too can write well…Thanks mam(English mam)

I was expecting more comments for my first blog…but other than Smilez comment I didn’t get any other….But still that comment made me feel as if I had a hit a sixer to the boundary…

All the bloggers post and writings have given me the inspiration to write and today I am too a blogger .... My world and my thoughts have been changed because of this Sulekha bloggging world… Thanks to Sulekha and the bloggers…

I am not a good blogger but trying to be one…..